名正言順的another kitchen

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我必需要經歷一次人生重大的改變。
我將變成完全陌生的另一個人，一個這個身體從來未曾認識的靈魂。

改變信念是一件認真的事，從心裡的改變。即使是一個謊話，要撒得有技巧，連自己都要信，別人才會相信你。

我深信這是一個摧化劑，一個快證，一條捷徑，管他。我要取得某個必要的成果，我必需這樣做。沒人能夠想像我的一心一意，雖然這會是一件不被察覺的小事，在他人的眼裡。但我深信這會帶來重要的轉變，什至得益，之於我，它是無限擴展的。

這會是一輩子的事情。

my recent life

University life makes me a sane person. I feel whole and complete, a feeling which I have lost for many years. It calms me down and the frequency I am depressed and stressed decreases dramatically. Staying away from exams and pressure, and maybe my family, my mother, and embracing something I really love, twists my life. It tunes me back to normal. I pick up books I love and movies I like and music I enjoy, and sing in my band once everyweek. I write in my journal daily, and check my organizer to see what to do for Sonic Bloom. I hang out with my university friends and friends I love. We do things we love to do like going to the movie, and discuss it enthusiastically. I talk to my friends about music and CDs and live shows, something I used to talk about only with net friends. We learn about photography, art of moving image, experimental art works and all those artists and films and documentaries impressionism cubism and all those abstract paintings at school. My friends create their own pin hole cameras and try to see the world through different viewfinders. We shoot videos according to the style we like. We go to drink and sing sometime. We play guitar and we perform. We make songs in midnight when we can't fall asleep. Late in the lesson again the next day.

I am happy.
I am not happy.


A little part of me died.
Something inside me is lost forever.